Am I Wrong??

i was just wondering about sumthing....that how can something u like......say very small, trivial things....... become source of your troubles......
like when u like something...u obviously expect that to be given to you...or like when u r used to being pampered or loved too much...it sort of becomes a habit....ur mind thinks its alwayz got to be dere for you...u think such things are dere like wind and air and oxygen......

but then your life changes....things which are important for you and which you like,......which you want to be there....atleast once in a while...if not alwayz.....they r not there.... nobody understands you anymore..... your needs......
somebody may give you his/her best...but he/she mite not be knowing that something very small which of course gives you great pleasure and sweet memories is missing from your life......
that sort of disturbs you...... u start thinking you are not allowed to be urself...rather u are not able to be urself ...
u think what you neeeded and cherish is such a small thing...... is it necessary to keep you deprived of small joys which cud make you feel loved and important and understood....

but then u expect and expect and expect....................
and hurt yourself..........expect and hurt...expect and hurt.........
it becomes a vicious cycle...........
u try but u r not able to come out of it................. it hurts ....it pains.................
u carve to be free from urself...ur own likes, dislikes................
what u want is just to live .....just let the days pass by....

but then when u look inside urself...u find its all because of ur expectations, cos of things u like...cos of things u want.....
so the obvious solution seems to change urself, cut down on your needs, change ur attitude, when u see something you like...just tell your mind....u no more like/want this...
slowly and gradually you will have liking for nothing....... u will want nothing and then follows peace...but u also loose the charm in life.............. you loose the enthu......
u can put up a fake smile on ur face but u cant be happy from within.........
but is this the right way???? are you not cheating on yourself??
maybe yes..........the conflict goes on..........and life seems too boring and mundane

I Want

I want
Somebody with whom I can share my joys, sorrows,fears,dreams........ myself
Somebody to whom I can ask for all silly,small and otherwise-not-so-important things; which make me happy
Somebody who can enjoy things I like and like things I like
Somebody who can understand the real me....hidden from the world
Somebody to whom I can say anything and never regret
Somebody who can be my strength when I am weak
Somebody who can be my crowd when I feel lonely
Somebody who can be a listening ear when I wanna shout
Somebody who might not be able to give me the world's riches but can lend me a shoulder when I am LOST
Somebody who is ALWAYS there for me no matter what
Somebody who just cannot see me crying
I want somebody to JUST LOVE me truly...............